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Red in a sea of black and white
My vision is a translucent blur and my head is constantly squeezing tighter, looser, tighter, loser. I feel like a rag drifting in the wind, the only thing that changes me are external factors. I’m not me. I’m not who I am and I’m not a being. I don’t have a sense of urgency, I don’t have a sense of enjoyment, practicality, realisation, enthusiasm or even feelings anymore.
I feel numb. I cut myself and the pain is just colour in a world of distrust and suffering without the pain or emotions. Blood is liquid soul. Red in a sea of black and white.
I feel like I’m marching along with a crowd, without any sense of individuality or uniqueness. Even the picturesque imagery of my mind feels stagnant and irrelevant. I could cry but I can’t feel sad, I would laugh but I never feel joy. I would smile but I don’t have effort. I wouldn’t bother being if I even bothered at all.
I am a prisoner in my own mind and I can’t escape it. Voices k
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Literature
We are Suicidal
In this world I feel nothing but pain,
In my eyes I see tears and blue,-
In this world I am only the same,
As the worst is the worst of me and you.-
I cry to sleep I cry to death,
I cry until the pains in my head,
Until my heart has stopped,
And until my feelings are shot.
We are the burdens that are in this world,
We are the children that watched it unfurl,
We are the lives that never mattered,
We are the ones whoms ashes aren’t scattered,
Our deaths are only intentional, and our pain is merely conventional, while your excuses about our potential are what remind us of how we’re all two dimensional but to you we’re only attentional. Tensional.
We are the pinnacle of survival in a world that’s cynical and as we breathe in the clinical air and we stare at our own empty binnacle. Unethical. You think that we’re finical because we’re not dominical. In a world that’s difficult and in words of lyrical we’re in a hurt of invisible because of the
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My vision is a translucent blur and my head is constantly squeezing tighter, looser, tighter, loser. I feel like a rag drifting in the wind, the only thing that changes me are external factors. I’m not me. I’m not who I am and I’m not a being. I don’t have a sense of urgency, I don’t have a sense of enjoyment, practicality, realisation, enthusiasm or even feelings anymore.
I feel numb. I cut myself and the pain is just colour in a world of distrust and suffering without the pain or emotions. Blood is liquid soul. Red in a sea of black and white.

I feel like I’m marching along with a crowd, without any sense of individuality or uniqueness. Even the picturesque imagery of my mind feels stagnant and irrelevant. I could cry but I can’t feel sad, I would laugh but I never feel joy. I would smile but I don’t have effort. I wouldn’t bother being if I even bothered at all.
I am a prisoner in my own mind and I can’t escape it. Voices keep me awake at night, voices I don’t even hear or see.

I’ve given the universe enough of a letter that I’m struggling yet the only help I hear are the voices that I don’t hear and the people I don’t see. Just the red in a sea of black and white.
The people who I once cared for no longer care for me. I’m a hot blanket in summer. I feel unappreciated and uncared for. I feel loyalty is a thing of the past. The past I only ever see. The reason I see red. Red in a sea of black and white.

So for this is the final time I’m testing my patience. Next time I make my move. Next time my breath of peace will be a breath of fire. My stale mind will be a pained expression. My words of emptiness will be words of hatred and truths.
Next time I’m not going to be “me”, no, next time I’m going to be ME.
In this world I feel nothing but pain,
In my eyes I see tears and blue,-
In this world I am only the same,
As the worst is the worst of me and you.-
I cry to sleep I cry to death,
I cry until the pains in my head,
Until my heart has stopped,
And until my feelings are shot.

We are the burdens that are in this world,
We are the children that watched it unfurl,
We are the lives that never mattered,
We are the ones whoms ashes aren’t scattered,

Our deaths are only intentional, and our pain is merely conventional, while your excuses about our potential are what remind us of how we’re all two dimensional but to you we’re only attentional. Tensional.
We are the pinnacle of survival in a world that’s cynical and as we breathe in the clinical air and we stare at our own empty binnacle. Unethical. You think that we’re finical because we’re not dominical. In a world that’s difficult and in words of lyrical we’re in a hurt of invisible because of the political agenda that thinks it’s critical to being atypical to keep the ethical peacekeepers of our generation thinking they’re invincible when they’re only hypocritical. With few more syllable it’s a miracle that our messages are all so subliminal and how our clarity is elliptical. We’re mystical because we are but we’re not stereotypical. We’re not egotistical or analytical. We’re not biblical or reading the bible. We’re miserable. We’re impermissible. We’re suicidal.

We are the tomorrow’s generation and the past’s regression. We are the aggression and the assertion. We are the lovers and the haters. We are suicidal, we are the waiters that bring your food and the traitors that you hate too. We are the papers under your pens and your neighbours who make you say “I hate them.”
You ride a horse posturing upon the saddle and by enthralling the bridle, the ride is rough and tidal upon the thought of intertidal. We are not angry and ideal. We are angry and suicidal.
We are Suicidal
A poem I wrote after feeling passionate about how my feelings also dimly reflect on current affairs. Religions, expectations, understandings and burdening.
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  • Eating: pills and vodka
  • Drinking: pills and vodka

We are all the same, yet we are so different.

Life through tears isn’t a bearing to joy, nor a road to death.

My breath becomes dry.

Strife is what we make of it, but not to interpretation.

Depression is a sadness we don’t understand, yet you think you do.

The world passes me by but you feel alive.

Crying is pushed below the surface, yet you think it’s weak.

“Tonight I swear.”

I want to be happy, so do you.

Yet I’m sad, but so are you.

You’re often right and I’m often wrong.

Things change for me yet are stagnant for you.

“Tonight I swear.”

I bleed blue and cry red. Blood dripping from my thighs and madness inside. This is the end of my life.

“This is it.”

You think I’m just weak and soft. You think you’ll see me tomorrow.

This time I’m right, and you will be wrong.

You are now below me, and I’m on top.

“It wasn’t even painful”

Suicide is the cure to all problems.

Death is the cause to all problems.

Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

I scream “Help me!” with smiles and laughter.

Like a creek I stream, covering my hideousness.

I hide me with not me.

“You still never listened.”

All the pain I was in, yet you remained broken.

I listened and I understood.

We were equal. You were me and I was you.

“It’s finally over.”

My last breath was bliss, yet yours will begin to dry.

My days are cold and dark, but happy and bright, yet, yours are now passing you by.

“Fin.”

  • Eating: pills and vodka
  • Drinking: pills and vodka

We are all the same, yet we are so different.

Life through tears isn’t a bearing to joy, nor a road to death.

My breath becomes dry.

Strife is what we make of it, but not to interpretation.

Depression is a sadness we don’t understand, yet you think you do.

The world passes me by but you feel alive.

Crying is pushed below the surface, yet you think it’s weak.

“Tonight I swear.”

I want to be happy, so do you.

Yet I’m sad, but so are you.

You’re often right and I’m often wrong.

Things change for me yet are stagnant for you.

“Tonight I swear.”

I bleed blue and cry red. Blood dripping from my thighs and madness inside. This is the end of my life.

“This is it.”

You think I’m just weak and soft. You think you’ll see me tomorrow.

This time I’m right, and you will be wrong.

You are now below me, and I’m on top.

“It wasn’t even painful”

Suicide is the cure to all problems.

Death is the cause to all problems.

Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

I scream “Help me!” with smiles and laughter.

Like a creek I stream, covering my hideousness.

I hide me with not me.

“You still never listened.”

All the pain I was in, yet you remained broken.

I listened and I understood.

We were equal. You were me and I was you.

“It’s finally over.”

My last breath was bliss, yet yours will begin to dry.

My days are cold and dark, but happy and bright, yet, yours are now passing you by.

“Fin.”

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dopewalkaa Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2015
Thank you so much for adding me to your deviantwatch :D thats nice :D
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dopewalkaa Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2015
Thanks for the fav :) maybe you might like some of my other stuff too
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SunflowerTwix Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2015
^-^ I'm sure I will!
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PixelsArtShop Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you
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SunflowerTwix Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2014
Oh? What for??? *looks very confused*
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ILuvHalo Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday :D
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SunflowerTwix Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014
Thank youuuu <33333333
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ILuvHalo Featured By Owner Apr 4, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the faves :la:
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SunflowerTwix Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014
Thank you for the badge! I even followed you. ^.^

You have a great skill and I'm happy to see more of it! I'm a music pone, so I have no drawing skillz. :P <3
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ILuvHalo Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yay! THANKS!!! :happybounce:
(sorrry for the that jeje, I always forgot to say thanks for the watch ^^; )
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